:Funny:

It's a funny thing, this.

This sense of disconnect, of un-attachment...

This dread that everything that goes differently than hoped or planned is a direct result of your actions...

This concept that...well...I don't know... Something's not right.

And it's not funny in the sense of hilarity, as if I just told some joke that demands a raucous response...

It's funny in the "I don't understand this" sense; the "what the heck is going on here" sense... The "dear God, there must be something wrong with me" sense.

And it's SO HARD to walk away from those feelings.

To deny them entry.

To disallow their ability to control, distort, and disassemble your life brick by brick.

It's a funny thing, this...